It's irony, and it's fucking brilliant.Turns out, I am ADHD-positive. Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder of the Inattentive Type. Basically, I can't pay attention to save my life. Literally. I could be driving a car, simultaneously texting my friend about this other girl who's a total ditz and wore green for Freshmen step-up day and everybody knows you're not supposed to wear green on step-up day because THAT, my friends, is anarchy to the herierarchical system that is supported in High School, which is like bitch-slapping god while wearing neo-nazi swastika patches at your local Wal-mart! Dammit, what is WRONG with you, you goddamn spaz!
BOOM.
Car crash.
...and they said it wasn't terminal.Anyways, the results were in just this morning. So, I've been put on Ritalin for a couple weeks to test for any side effects; it's a pretty low dosage, 27 milligrams.
You know what my worst fear is when I take the pill?
I think I might just lose myself. Call me crazy, but whenever I space out and my mind is reeling with the insights of my imagination, I feel like myself. Without that, I'd have no fuel to harbor my creativity, neither the strength to. I'm afraid that if I focus for once in my life, I wouldn't like what I see.
" I see my life as what I would like to see happen, not what actually does."
And along comes Ritalin to take it all away.
*Sigh*, my friends did always think I should be medicated.
Anyways, enough with that. On to Finals! Yes. Finals. The single reason why all teens should be on anti-depressants. Thankfully, I do okay in my classes. 2 A's, 1 B+ and a single C...In Math. So, if I keep riding this wave long enough, I might just make it long enough to see the daylight of summer. Hoo-rah! I can't wait. :]
Oh, I got a haircut. Hehe. YES! The short one I was hoping for. It doesn't look like the photo, but in my opinion, MUCHO better. It's short-ish (doesn't even reach my shoulder blades), it's messy and it's uber sexy. And so much easier to take care of. Oh.So.Much.
Hmm, what else did I miss? Nope. Got nothin' else to say. Who'da thunk?
-The now-medicated Tai.
